Unintended Hiatius for Gifts

Well.. kayaknya udah lama blog gw ini gak diupdate..
ada beberapa alasan sih sebenernya:
1. gw lagi gak tau mau nulis apa.. sebenernya ada, cuma gw entah tidak menemukan hal yang cocok untuk diceritakan dalam blog ini
2. gw juga sibuk.. mengenai kepindahan gw ke bandung.. well, harus ngurus ini itu.. capek sih emang gw nya.. hehe..
3. gw lagi pingin update blog gw jadi nanti pas re-launch it could be better than this..

yah, dengan alasan tersebut, dengan terpaksa blog gw ini akan gw "liburkan" selama jangka waktu yang tidak ditentukan.. intinya sih sampe ketiga poin diatas tadi slese ato terpecahkan. ya begitulah pokoknya..

hmm, pokoknya buat orang-orang yang sudah berbaik hati mau baca blog gw, untuk ini gw ucapkan terima kasihnya sampe saat ini. and see you later when i'm finished with all of this!!

oh ya, meskipun blog gw akan hampa dengan update-update posting, namun chatbox yang ada di sebelah kanan masih bisa dipake ko.. oke?

without wax,
rahdhitya

Gifts and Curses

well, well, finally this things come...
the result of USM-ITB that i did around three weeks ago.

so, what's the result? yah, sedikit mengejutkan dan tidak mengejutkan.. GW DITERIMA!!!!!

OMG!! i didn't believe it at first!!!

tapi setelah berulang kali dicek dan dilihat dengan memakai mata sendiri dan orang lain.. man, it's real... oh, God, terima kasih untuk semuanya... this is your first GIFT to me after a year without it..

nah... tujuan pertama dalam hidup sudah terpenuhi. keterima ITB dan membahagiakan orang tua dengan hal tersebut...

without wax,
rahdhitya

Blackout

Berlawanan dengan kemarin, hari ini terasa aneh, aneh, aneh, dan sedikit menakutkan.
Kenapa sedikit menakutkan?
Because today, looks like I'm feeling paranoia again.. I don't know why.. I don't know why, I don't know why...

hmm...
maybe it was just my feeling after all.. but I'm feeling different today..

I can't talk to her about this. I don't want to make her worry about this...
And I don't want to get her involved in this, cause maybe I would lose my control sometimes..

Right now, just get things straight and right..
and while doing that, I want to get happy with her...

over and out,
without wax,
rahdhitya

Fluorescent Adolescent

now, now.. I believe everything will change after this..

finally I get it.. someone with the same ideal with me.. someone I feel comfortable with..
I'm enjoying this moment for now..

terima kasih untuk dia disana atas pengertian dan perhatiannya..

I really appreciate that..

just like I said to her before, finally I found someone I can sing "Endlessly" to..

"and now.. the moment has come..."

thank God for that...

(You Want To) Make A Memory

this is the question I asked to myself after last night (incident?) event..

should I make it go or what? should I try it again or what? should I do something or not?
should I just stand here by myself or should I need someone to stand with?

the last question seems bother me more than other question?
that's what I think for.. should I make it just by me? or should I find someone to stand with me here? if latter is the answer, then who is it supposed to be?
siapakah dia itu? apakah masih sama seperti sebelumnya? atau orang yang benar-benar baru?

jika begitu.. siapakah itu?
you know, I have make a promise to myself not to look for others but instead just stay here and watch it over...

someone said that the one I'm looking for will come close in a short time after this...
pertanyaan adalah, apakah dia seseorang yang sudah lama dikenal atau seseorang yang sama sekali baru? hampir mirip dengan pertanyaan di atas...

well, well..
guess I can't help it..
I'm still hoping that she will change her mind, although I know it's small in chance...
kita lihat saja untuk waktu ke depannya...

the chance is little, I know..
but somehow, maybe I'm just be a stubborn guy, I sense some hope there..

akan kita lihat dalam waktu dekat (atau mungkin panjang) manakah dari hal ini yang benar..

without wax,
rahdhitya

Thanks For The Memories

a suprise has come to me at the beginning of the year...
really, i'm really surprised with this...

kemarin, dia hanya bilang, "maaf, tidak bisa..."
and then, now she said, "i think it's worth to try..."

but try for what?
the answer is, "worth to think about it..."

wew...
surprising... but thrilling..
but it's a good surprise for this year..

hopefully, it's not a joke like the usual one I got..
hopefully, if it's real, it will last long...

"even if they weren't so great..."
but thanks to it..

Move Along

Today... is the new day of the year...
hari baru dimana semoga semuanya akan berjalan dengan lancar...

hanya saja... today seems to be violated by my own stupidness..
what i've done?
well, well.. i guess she's hate me if she didn't reply it...

if not...
semuanya masih mungkin...
tapi, belum tentu semuanya berjalan dengan baik...

mudah-mudahan saja...

selagi itu menunggu, I'm listening to one of my favorite songs, Move Along by The All-American Rejects..

that's enough for this post.
without wax,
rahdhitya

Everything is Alright

People keep asking me about this today, "hey, are you alright? you look weird and different today.. anything wrong..?"
well, well, you all... apakah di muka ini terlihat jelas kalau memang ada masalah?
bukannya tidak ada masalah hari ini, tapi seperti terlihat di post sebelumnya, I just shocked, more precisely like hysteria...
just that.. no more, no less.. still, it's getting me frustated..
sepertinya itu memperkuat anggapan kalau 2007, adalah benar-benar tahun yang buruk.. much more worse than any other year...

hell, yeah, I can't get my hand to a girlfriend, so what's that problem for you stalker? damn it.. have life please, it's better than you keep asking me but not helping..
I want help not question...

oh, please...

I really want to say that everything is alright, tapi kata-kata itu tidak sesuai dengan kondisi sekarang. benar-benar tidak cocok.
kata-kata yang paling cocok untuk menggambarkan kondisi ini adalah, "I'm fuckingly frustrated.. I'm fuckingly depressed. and I want something to overcome it."
I don't know if the chibi can help me or not.
Just hope she can, or maybe he can, or maybe they can, or maybe nobody can...
Kalau sudah begitu, I'm really on my own...
It's true I have them, but I don't want to keep relying myself to them..
they have a life, dan hidup mereka tidak seharusnya dihabiskan untuk masalah ini saja..

i could be wrong, i could be right..
tapi sepertinya lebih tepat if i was right...

to enclose this, i want to say to you guys, HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008... semoga mendapatkan tahun yang baik.. yeah, so do I...

without wax,
rahdhitya