Endlessly

The chance are gone, now I'm on my own then...

huff..
siapakah yang sebenarnya harus gw percaya...?
it is him? or her? or they? or just me?

it's getting unbelievable right now..
this news is a shocking to me.. ya, benar-benar kejutan tidak menyenangkan di akhir tahun..
sepertinya memang ini adalah tahun yang terburuk di antara tahun yang lain...
i don't know if it will better in 2008, but hope it will be it..

if it doesn't.. then I'm getting worse over and over..

I really wonder if there's a little happiness for me in this world...

"This part of me, you'll never know.. The only thing I'll never show...
Hopelessly.. I'll love you endlessly, hopelessly, I'll give you anything...
But I won't GIVE YOU up.. I won't LET YOU down.. and i won't LEAVE YOU falling...
if the MOMENT EVER COMES........

but the MOMENT NEVER COMES......."

guess this is the end for my story now...
i will just watch from the far and let things flow like usual...

without wax,
rahdhitya

Twisted Logic

Sebentar lagi tahun 2007 akan berakhir dan bersama kita akan menyongsong 2008 (semoga saja tahun depan semuanya akan lebih baik)..

untuk itu, post ini akan memuat tentang 10 hal terbaik 2007 dari segala genre (mohon pengertiannya kalau pada akhirnya review ini bersifat objektif maupun subjektif)

baiklah, here we goes....

BEST EVENTS OF 2007:
10. The 49th Annual Grammy Awards - Staples Center, LA

9. MTV Video Music Awards 2007

8. Kemenangan Kimi Raikkonen pada seri terakhir Formula 1 World Championship di sirkuit Interlagos, Brazil

7. Piala Asia 2007 di Indonesia, Malaysia, Thailand, dan Vietnam

6. Pengumuman pengunduran diri Tony Blair dari kursi perdana menteri Inggris

5. Kemenangan A.C. Milan atas Liverpool di final Champions League 2007

4. Kemenangan Riyo Mori pada ajang Miss Universe 2007

3. SEA Games 2007 di Bangkok

2. Peluncuran Windows Vista oleh Microsoft

1. Peluncuran iPhone oleh Apple yang sudah ditunggu-tunggu oleh masyarakat


BEST MOVIE OF 2007:
10. Pirates of The Caribbean: At World's End

9. Lust, Caution

8. 300

7. Spider-Man 3

6. American Gangster

5. The Bourne Ultimatum

4. Shrek The Third

3. The Simpsons Movie

2. Transformers

1. Charlie Wilson's War and Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street


BEST TECHNOLOGY OF 2007:
10. Boeing 787 - Boeing

9. Atlantis Space Shuttle

8. iPod 3rd Generation - Apple

7. The New MacBook - Apple

6. Nintendo Wii - Nintendo

5. X-Box 360 - Microsoft

4. Airbus A380 - Airbus

3. Windows Vista - Microsoft

2. PlayStation 3 - Sony

1. iPhone - Apple


BEST ALBUMS OF 2007:
10. Welcome The Night - The Ataris

9. Yours Truly, Angry Mob - Kaiser Chiefs

8. Lost Highway - Bon Jovi

7. The Best Damn Thing - Avril Lavigne

6. It Won't Be Soon Before Long - Maroon 5

5. Call Me Irresponsible - Michael Buble

4. Paper Walls - Yellowcard

3. Favourite Worst Nightmare - Arctic Monkeys

2. Infinity On High - Fall Out Boy

1. Minutes to Midnight - Linkin Park

baiklah itu semua dari tahun 2007...
kalau ada yang protes silahkan saja...

without wax,
rahdhitya

It Ends Tonight

Well, well.. looks like there's been many people (my friends..) that complain to me to write the blog in English because some of them can't read what I type clearly..
okay, okay..
for that, looks like this is the end of english dominance in my blog, because since today, my post will be bilingual. it will be written in both english and indonesian..

for people out there who complain to me about this, hope you will be satisfied with this (they don't even leave a comment here!!)

without wax,
rahdhitya

Starlight

well, well, well, hell yes.. finally..
after weeks of trying, convincing, searching, and waiting, finally, finally... the new year plan is cancelled..
for God's sake...

now, now, what I gotta do?
I miss that chance to go there for the last time this year...
my hope and expectation ends here for this year..

hopefully next year will be better, with a brand new life, new lifestyle, new people, and hopefully for new love..

I can't read the future, I only can imagine and hope for it, but I wish it all become true..

that's all for this post,
see you later,
without wax,
rahdhitya

You Will Lose Everything....

Actually, that words belong to Voldemort, who said it in the Order of The Phoenix while he trying to kill Harry Potter.
but right now, I feel like that words will come upon me.
if I do "that" I will lose everything.. but if I don't do that, sooner or later that person will find out about it, and it will make everything worse..

oh God... what should I do about it?
these guys are all that I have... if I lose them, then it will have no meaning if I succeed in entering ITB..
this is the most difficult decision I have to take in my life until now...

lose them.. or keep it deep until it become rotten...

I just pray everything will be fine..
if it happened, I just hope that he will be on her side, not mine..

without wax,
rahdhitya...

The Future Has Arrived

Lots of things happened to us lately.
Just two days ago, finally I can feel what it's like by sitting in a car that get hit by a container.
And finally, I can open my mouth and arguing with someone's older.
Wew.. that's really fun and thrilling for me.

Well, well...
and beside lots of things that happened to me, there's also big things that are about to change for me.
just one of the case is about my love life.
looks like I'm about to witness something different from my life starting.. now.
I don't know if I can make it this time, because this problem is really difficult and it will takes much time and mind from me..

this time it's really different, something will be taken from me if I do this wrong.
only few people will know what I'm talking about, and I hope only that few people who knows.
I appreciate those who keep this things for themselves.

huff...

life of a man will change, sometimes it was up and sometimes it was on a down side.
just hope that I will survive both of the times.

without wax,
rahdhitya

Hysteria

"I want it now.. I want it now.."
Well, yes, I want something now..
Too bad, that maybe it hurting me.

Actually, the thing that I want may not really important for you.
But for me it's important.
Well, just like the same, this problem is connected to a... girl.

Hell, yes, it's about a girl.
There's a girl.. there's a girl.
About this girl, well, I don't have to write in detail, but you could tell that she's nice and good.
I don't know what I think of, but there's another girl who suddenly appeared in my life.
Well, well, well, well, well, well.. why does this thing always happened to me when I'm about to commit myself to someone..

It's true that I can't love someone else until now since "she" has gone away..
but it doesn't mean that I don't try to overcome it..
I've tried.. some works, but some don't..
it works, but just don't last too long...

huff...
I don't know about it now...
perhaps I could find the answer in times..

that's enough for this post.
see you later.
without wax,
rahdhitya.

This Footage is Found Near....

I got another reason to stay alive until 2008 (hehe, guess that's too hyperbole).
There's a lot of movie that will comes out at 2008.
Well, I've anticipated some of it.
Here's one of the example.




The movie is called Cloverfield.
Nothing known about this movie except this movie will introduce a new kind of monster.
The producer of this movie is J.J. Abrams (the one that brought us Lost, Alias, and Mission: Impossible III) and directed by Mark Reeves.

Judging from the trailer, I hope this movie will entertain.
I hope it's not only the trailer that's good.
Well, we have to wait until January 18th, 2008.

that's enough for this post.
catch you later.
without wax,
rahdhitya

The Take Over, The Break's Over

Maybe this post title has no connection to the content (but since when my posts synchronized each other??)

well, well..
looks like i've been forced to close my self to the outside world. there's a lot of thing that I missed.
for example, some of my friends now are couple. if they were just another couple, it's okay, but the real thing is, I never expect them to be a couple. wew.. life is strange, so does love.

then the next thing I didn't notice was.. "she", yes I mean she, the previous one (for those who don't know who she is, shame you all.. hehe...) now wearing a jilbab!! wow.. maybe I should noticed it earlier, but looks like my eyes was staring another.

the last one was a big surprise for me. not that I don't expect it, but I just surprised. but I appreciate and approve it. two thumbs up for you girl!!

hehe..
season's change but people don't.
you wrong FoB.. people do change, just look at everyone else around you.
maybe you didn't notice it earlier, but you will know by the time comes.

well, that's enough for this post.
see you later.
without wax,
rahdhitya

I Write Sins Not Tragedies

Finally, some good news today.
I've got some good news!! Finally...

well, it looks like that we're gonna do it!
we're gonna leave to bandung on 30th!!
wew!

haha.. that's all because my friend's willingness, so the plan actually can be done.

huff..
all of my hard work are going to pay off..
thank god..

that's enough for this posts.
catch you later.
without wax,
rahdhitya

It Hurts

Well, well...
today is the judgment day for our New Year trip plan.
today the decision will be taken, despite how many person is coming.

hope the decision will bring this dispute to an end.
I'm beginning tired of waiting.
if the result of today is negative, I will withdrawn my participation from this plan and let them do the rest by themselves.

huff...
why it has to be like this...?

that's enough for today's post.
see you again.
without wax,
rahdhitya

Unintended

Huff...
another day almost pass again in just 5 hours again.
still no development for the New Year Plan.
I began to make a reserve plan for us. if there's no car that we can use, maybe we should take the travel if we still want to go.

But I don't know if they will accept this plan or not.
This like a nightmare come true. not about the nightmare, but about the headache that I feel because of this plan.
Well, I almost not get sleep just to calculate the budget so we get the lowest as we can afford.
but in the end, it's the truth that we have to play a little higher than we expected.

just as I thought, when I announce it to them... well, some of them agree with it, but some of it ask it they can get lower.
to tell the truth, if we want to get the lower one.. we probably have to shorten our trip and sleep at the park..

argh... I don't know what I have to do again..
tomorrow I'm planning to go to Fajar's to solve this thing.
if they won't come tomorrow, I will withdraw my participation in this plan..
God... are you testing me again in the end of the year...?

that's enough for this post..
see you again.
without wax,
rahdhitya

New Born

Well, since it's already 12 o'clock here, I want to say some words for you all.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA IDUL ADHA 1428 H!!

Don't forget to pray at the morning, and do you sacrifice (with animal of course)
If there's some left, give it to me please.. hehehe..

That's all I want to say folks.
Have a nice day today.
without wax,
rahdhitya

Why So Serious?

Wew, that title above is the tagline from my number one "have-to-watch" movie in 2008, The Dark Knight.
Judging from the title, I can say that the tagline was taken from Joker's dialogue, Batman's foe of the movie. I eagerly want to watch this movie. I think the movie will be great, since Christoper Nolan hold the director position once again.

Wow.. I can't wait until May 2008.
For the sake of the waiting, I got some pictures from The Dark Knight.
It's kinda creepy I think.
Just take a look at it.
























It's Joker who write the words.
Kinda creepy right?
Wow! I can't wait for the movie!!!
2008, I'm coming!

Okay, that's enough for the crazy one
Catch you later
without wax,
rahdhitya

When The Sun Goes Down

Well, that title was taken from Arctic Monkeys song.
I love that song. I don't know why, that song just fit at my ear.

Anyway, I've been thinking that this year, 2007, is the bad year for me, well the worst.
That could be true, that could be wrong.
But I think the first one is the correct one.
Many proof for that one.
I don't know how to say it. If you could look into my memory, you'll know it.
If this holiday plan for New Year to Bandung is canceled, then the worst of the year will add again.

Huff..
So fuckingly bad year for me.
I don't know why.
Maybe I did something awful to someone at the past. Maybe...

Anyway, I've write another song for my band's album. It's called You're The One That Goes Out In The Middle of The Rain. It's a great song I think.
I don't know when I will post it here, since we haven't done the recordings. We're still looking for a singer. Anyone want to? Just contact me.

Okay, that's it for this topic.
More on from me later.
without wax,
rahdhitya.

How Far We've Come

Today, I supposed to get my calculation for the budget trip to bandung.
well, i've done it actually... but what make it bad is... the total budget of it.
we (yeah, we) supposed to collect around 310.000 per person.
wew.. that amaze me.
if i think about it, can I convice them (the headstone people, hehe) to collect it?

to manage around 16 guys like this, i feel like i'm faced with the government people and kindergarten children. well, not all of them like that. but some of it, yeah.. you can say that.

huff..
things like this make my blood temperature become unstable.
if the plan is canceled... well, here comes the chainsaw..

hahaha..
that was a bad joke.

anyway,
that's all for this post.
without wax,
rahdhitya.

First

If I think about it, when the first time I created this blog, I haven't got a chance to fill it.
I wonder what I did at that time.. well, forget about it.

First thing first, since I'm tired of typing the diary on my notebook, it's better put the "unpersonal" thing here.


Well.. Well.. What should I say again?

anyway, that's all for the first post.
i have something to calculate here.
see you through.
without wax,
rahdhitya.