You Will Lose Everything....

Actually, that words belong to Voldemort, who said it in the Order of The Phoenix while he trying to kill Harry Potter.
but right now, I feel like that words will come upon me.
if I do "that" I will lose everything.. but if I don't do that, sooner or later that person will find out about it, and it will make everything worse..

oh God... what should I do about it?
these guys are all that I have... if I lose them, then it will have no meaning if I succeed in entering ITB..
this is the most difficult decision I have to take in my life until now...

lose them.. or keep it deep until it become rotten...

I just pray everything will be fine..
if it happened, I just hope that he will be on her side, not mine..

without wax,
rahdhitya...