Bliss

So... finally it ends here..
perjuangan 8 bulan secara diam-diam ini akhirnya berakhir pada titik ini..

truth to be told, I failed it.
and now, I've lost it.

can I get it back?
masih ada sedikit, sangat sedikit harapan untuk itu.. but it's rather impossible for now..
I didn't ask about that answer, but I don't want to guess it either.

of course I was curious and... feel sad.
lonely maybe the right word after it..

yeah, right now, I feel uncertain about anything..
I know I shouldn't be like this, but it's looks like I lost something precious..
mungkin saja itu terlalu melodrama, but... right now, that's what I feel.

I've predicted that maybe I won't get succeed in this thing, jadi... kenapa ini terasa hampa dan perih?

alasan...
adakah alasan untuk jawaban tadi?
I didn't ask for it, maybe I know the answer is obvious.
yeah, maybe the answer is obvious..
that answer was simple, but to the point..

I don't know.. but I see something behind it all, although I don't know what it is.

if that's the case, maybe my feeling was right...
maybe she had someone else inside, maybe I didn't try harder, maybe I was too late for it..
banyak kemungkinan yang terjadi, banyak pula jawaban yang mungkin benar..

untuk sekarang, I don't know what it is.......

usually, I will try to find out what it is, but my feeling said that it will only hurt me more.
jadi.. mungkin saja hal itu tidak dimaksudkan untuk dibuka..

huff....

this is a sad moment for me... I wonder if we will talk again like usual in other times..
maybe no.. I've make a stupid mistake, I think...

sekarang ini.... sepertinya hanya waktu yang bisa memberitahu apa yang akan terjadi selanjutnya....