Everybody's Changing

so.. it is true..
it has to ends right now..
it just a temporary happiness...
geez...

when will I get those one? the one that I seek for..
I thought I already found it, but she said it was a mistake...
"everybody make a mistake sometimes, right?"

yes, it is...

but I don't think you made the wrong choice there, dear...
why don't you try it even for a moment...?

now, what I got is only my despair...

this year isn't much different than the previous one..
it hurts and killing me..

hurts... I can't believe I lost it just in a blink of an eye..
maybe I was just too hoping..

no, no, I'm not too hoping...
I always hope for this moment to come, and now it all gone in front my eyes and in the hearing of my ear..

I know that I can't force you to do that.. neither that I can make you believe to every single word I said...

but.. well, forget it. I know you wouldn't believe for just once and I know that you wouldn't want try to do that...
I know that I'm not dependable, trust-worthy partner, and I know that I can't give you anything...

but.. you may not know that.. I won't give you up.. I won't leave you falling.. and I will always love you endlessly if you give me a chance...
yeah, I know.. I'm not capable to be given such a chance again..
I know that I've been doing wrong in the past, I know that I've hurt you accidentally...

I never meant that all..

this part of me you'll never know..
cause maybe I won't show it again to another one..
it all the ends of my journey..

time to get back and standing like a moron here..
damn..
standing like a moron.. that words really suitable for me...

I don't know if this thing could be replace again just like usual, because I have my promise to myself..
also for her, without you knowing it dear..

hmm..
I didn't even have a chance to say "dear" to her...

I probably will never get a chance to say that anymore..

without wax,
rahdhitya to you there..